Thursday, June 09, 2016

Planet Comicon Weekend May 20-22

Wow! What can I say about Planet Comicon? I LOVED IT! SO MUCH! It was my first year volunteering and I would do it all over again! Maybe all three days next time. It was great! I have been so tired ever since! But I've been pretty busy on the weekends since that weekend too. So, it could be that as well. I am not in shape, I need to exercise here at home too. That may increase my stamina too on a daily basis. So I have a few pictures I wanted to share while I write. Here is the first one. 
THE QUIET BEFORE THE STORM! SATURDAY MORNING BEFORE THE CON OPENS
So I had to use my walker since I was going to be walking so much and all day long. I had forgotten it on Orientation night. What a mistake! I was so pooped that night and it was so hard to keep up with the group. Well, but in the end they slowed down for me to keep up with them. There are so many volunteers that are needed for one of these events its just crazy how many of us were in the orientation room that night. It was standing room only by the time it started. So the instruction, don't be a fan girl/boy when you see the celebrities, they need down time too. Darn! I hope I don't run into anyone I know! I don't know if I can contain it, really, I do not know! But it didn't happen, sadly I was so far away from the celebrities most of the time that I couldn't get all fan-girly anyway. I do regret not walking up and talking to Edward James Olmos(Battlestar Galactica, Agnets of Shield, Selena, Mi Familia), there were two times where no one was stopping anyone from coming in and talking to him and I got scared I might get in trouble both times! Ugh!!! I should have just done it! Who knows if he will be back the next time or not, and that will be a whole year away now. Booo! Regrets! 


 There was so much to see there and working it gave me whole different perspective on the event. I had fun, met a bunch of people who share the same fandom as I do. Though I did feel a bit behind on all the details and new stuff like, Dr. Who, I still felt at ease or understood there! But it was funny, people were still pretty quiet when they sat in the break room and I felt the need to start up conversations with those I did not know. I wore the perfect shoes and they had T-Shirts made up for us. I should have taken a picture of me in it! I did with my grandson but you can't see the shirt at all. I may take that later and add it as my profile picture here. I had a ride from someone who volunteered at the con and she was great, she knew her stuff, all the details most know, I can't remember anything and I never really have been able to do that anyway. Maybe I am not spending as much time as these folks do watching, reading and studying the movies, books, etc. Who knows but I don't recall details like that except for maybe some Star Wars lines, because that is the series I am totally into. I like Star Trek, Lord of the Rings, Avengers, and on and on. I love Science Fiction movies and books, I like so much I get them all mixed up. But I guess Star Wars and the Avengers would be the ones I really love and add to that the Alien and Predator movies too. Love them Aliens and Predators to death!
MY GRANDSON AND I HAD TO FIND THESE GUYS EVERY DAY IF WE COULD - FOUND THEM TWO DAYS IN A ROW!
  Being in this bunch of people got me to thinking...why don't I have all the things and figures and collectors items and all that stuff they so adore and try so hard to get? I could only guess that I was going to college a long time, raising kids, dealing with a crazy man, and I was lucky to have just seen the movies I guess, but my family was very big on going to the movies. Ever since I was little, it was something we did all the time. We saw lots of movies, I think my dad really loved them, all kinds of them too. Anyway, we loved movies so I saw a ton of them. And I think with school and kids and work and they crazy baby daddy, I didn't have the money to get all those things. But my parents did get us all the Star Wars toys when we were young, so I had plenty! Now I am on disability and therefore I really don't have the money to do all that now. I would love to though. I wish I could but maybe I will strike it rich one day and be able to do that. But that is exactly why I volunteered, so I wouldn't have to pay to get in and do something to help in an event that I love! And it did not disappoint! I had a ball and I will be doing it again in the future. 
MORTAL KOMBAT CHARACTERS
STAR WARS PICK UP TRUCK

My grandson made his own Predator costume when we heard how much the real one costs! I think he did well with cardboard and notebook paper so quickly! But he took it off at the con, I suspect since his didn't look like everyone else's costumes. :( I thought it was good considering he stayed up all night making it. It was good for what he had, which wasn't much to work with! He did get in trouble for marking up his blue t-shirt though...Lol. He did purchase a new Predator figure the first day of the con and loves it. And we got to taking pictures of it at the restaurant after the event that day. This final picture is the Ancient Predator action figure. 

          

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Returning to write again...

Wow! It's been forever since I've blogged here. I think I left you last when my father passed away. I have been through a lot again and am now fighting like a girl. To catch you up since my last post in 2012, the very next year I was diagnosed with stage 4 Breast Cancer. And the doctor actually did not think I would make it much longer. I was having a lot of pain and they did not expect me to make it. But! Alas! Here I am now two and a half years later. And I know that isn't long but I've come from "We can keep you comfortable and let it run its course", to "I still can't believe how well you are doing!" So it seems like a long time. And being housebound now, it also feels like an extremely long time!

So, sadly, I am not able to make it to the meetings anymore since I don't drive and I sold my car because it was just sitting there going no where! Because I have discovered, I actually can drive without any problems but I didn't think I would because of bad cramping in my right hip. So, oh well, now I am dependent on others to get me here and there. Which is actually nice most of the time but when I really want to just get up and go, I can't. So everything is usually planned now.

I talk to some of the people in my groups here and there but not too much anymore. I miss them. But, I've had tons of support and I do frequent an online Cancer Support Group now. So still into groups but with a way different topic. I have a whole new set of support and much more experienced at this struggle than I am! I think I am the youngest one in the group too. That's kinda sad. But I could my blessings and I am so glad I am still around. I have grand babies to see and watch grow up and I have a higher power who watches over me! I know without Him, and all the prayers from those I requested from, I may not even be here. And  for that, I am very thankful!

Now I do depend on others a lot for a lot of things. I have a daily (during the week) nurse who comes to cook and clean and help me with whatever I need so I am not always alone - even though many times I would like to be though. I am just like that now it seems. My boyfriend has been very supportive beyond what I expected but hey, from what I had before him...I was expecting very little. But he has had this in his family before and maybe he knew what might be to come. And he did it without complaint at all! I am so grateful for him and that part of him. Much of the burden has been on him from the beginning, he was with me most all the time so he became my caregiver. At least until we got the daily nurse. I still feel very blessed to have him because he still does a lot for me even with the nurses around. I mean they can't be here all day (thank goodness!).  I have my Shitzu still who loves it that I am home with him all day long. He loved laying around with me when I was sick home from work and now I am here full time. I am looking into doing something to make more money because I really need it and I think it would make me feel much more productive.

Now to the geeky part. I depend on my Internet as my connection to the outside world. My cell phone doesn't have to be the newest but I prefer it. I use it the most of anything now. Texting to keep in contact with family and friends. And its easier to hold if I need to lay down. Especially since Chemo wears me out! TV, I still love watching the news and knowing what is going on in the world around me, no matter how saddening it is. I use Hulu and Netflix a lot now, I wish the local Price Chopper would do call-in orders for my groceries but I think the nurse likes to get away and do those things for me anyway. But it would fix the mistakes or misunderstanding we may have on my grocery lists! Oh okay the geeky part is I do actually do more blogging but it is for an online character I have in an online game called Second Life. I 've been in there since 2009 but now I am at home and have found something to do in there to earn me some stuff and talk about the stuff I love in that game. I've done that for a year now and I really enjoy that rather than the aimless wandering and doing nothing but partying, or chatting (if anyone was around) or just doing things with no point. I did start building in there but I am having trouble learning Blender, GIMP, Photoshop and those things which would very much increase my ability and expand what I could make so maybe I could earn a little bit of money (if even only to support my habit!). But blogging for events and stores in Second Life does take a lot of time. And it does help to support my habit in that I do get those items I blog for free. Whereas before I did not and I was blogging them back then too, just not in great detail. And since I love doing this in Second Life, I think I may enjoy it in my normal life too. And maybe I can earn a little money somehow.

And the geekier part of this story is I am going to a local convention called PlanetComicon. It is here every year and this year to save the money of admission, I am volunteering.  I think this will be so much fun! I am in contact with other volunteers and it seems like a crazy bunch of folks! I expect to be one of the more tame ones. They know so many details about the characters I love so much and the genres I follow. But even before chemo, I could never remember lines from movies and backstories and character origins and all that! And now that I am going thru chemo regularly, there is no way I could remember now! I would have to watch and re-read so many things over and over. I just do not have a memory like that and I never have.

And there you have it! Maybe not all the details but a lot of them. I know I've skipped a ton of the details but to spare you the book, I chose to do that.

Friday, February 10, 2012

The Night Before My Birthday

I took the day off from work. I played all day with my new cell phone (since January its new). I laid in bed with my phone and my little Shit zu, Deacon. He loves it when I am home with him all day. He stays right next to me all the time. I shop so much on my phone. I feel like its a game to find the most useful apps when I really don't use them much at all. Not enough time to use them a lot! I loved it, I slept in (8:30am), stayed in bed other than what I had to do. Deacon loved it too.

My family and I had dinner at a local Indian restaurant. My friend who is going through crazy stuff also came. It was good to see her having a good time. I love being with my family. Missed my dad a lot again. The kids gave me a card that made me almost cry again! And money! Woo hoo! I was surprised about that one! I think I will go purse shopping tomorrow with that! I also got two Taebo DVDs, some I had been looking at but had not purchased. Although I did find one - but it turned out to be not what I was wanting. But we will see. I have not bought any of the new Taebo stuff. Not sure why. I think I just like the Zumba and Biggest Loser DVDs more.

Work is going better since January is over! Its been crazy the last couple months. Seems like that for everyone though.

Still no meetings...but I think I want to go to Grief share again since Papa's death. It helped me with Mama's death immensely and I think I would benefit the same now. I know its still pretty fresh having happened in August but it is affecting me very differently now. I feel my concentration is gone! I make lots of mistakes at work, that I think I should have seen coming. If I get stuck on something I can't set it aside and try later - I stick with it but I don't get anywhere with it! I have never had so much trouble on a job before. The thing is, it started before my dad passed away and I also had a really bad year the year my mom passed away. Like it was a warning something big was coming in the future or something. Weird. But anyway, I seem to find comfort in my electronics, my online game, my nocturne romance books, anything to take me away from where I am in my real life.

I did start going back to church at the prodding of one of my kids. So that is great! I found an app of the Bible and so I don't need to carry my bible to church now. I do love that idea. I can also make notes in it and search it -- easier than the normal way. So we will see how that goes.

Well, bedtime. Gotta get up early tomorrow and I am late...

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Been Quite A While for Me

Well, its been a long time and I just suddenly thought of this blog once again. I am working so far away from home now. So far that I just stay out here with a co-worker during the week. Its great to have someone so similar to me to stay with. We like a lot of the same things and we get along great. We do differ on food though, big differences there.

Another big thing happened in my life in August. My dad has now passed away. It hurts so badly. I feel like I am not mourning like I think I should be yet again, like when Mama passed away. But like now when I blog about it, I feel it the most. And yesterday. My car was leaking oil and I was so daing lost as to who to take my car to for it to be fixed. Yes, Papa always had someone but that was also on the weekends only. I don't know why I don't just go see him. I think it will cause me to have memories and I WILL fall apart while I am there. And, he keeps the car, so there really is no place for me to go once he has it. Papa was always with me and we would go eat or do something else or whatever we needed to do so we did not sit around waiting. That was the fun part. I guess I would just have to take someone with me now to get me back and forth...but who? Its so far away but I trust him not to screw me over! I am not so sure about anyone else. So yet again I am a little lost. I did manage to find someone but I still need more work done...my leak is much smaller but still there due to another area that needs fixing. At least I hope that is true what they told me. They seemed to be trustful.

I can't believe its been more than a year since my last post. Not been to meetings at all...I work so far away when I get home I stay home. But I guess that makes sense...its been a little over a year since I started this job as a temp. Now I am a permanent employee. I love it but it is stressful. I need to find some way to better handle my stress. I know its affecting my skin, and my health. I am so tired, but I think that is mostly my fault. I still fight sleep...to play an online game where I have a partner. And a whole second life online. And dammit, I work too much there too. Its a great life there where I am taken care of and I get to have so much more than my own life. Its so opposite of my life but its a lot of work too. So it has been pretty easy to not get online to play, but even when I do not get online...I still stay up doing something...anything. Anything other than going to bed like I should! Why? I was so tired earlier and nearly falling asleep on the couch. But here I am now blogging.. and not tired again!

I also have a friend going thru a lot of craziness, its bringing back old memories too. And I invited my kids dad to go somewhere with me and some friends a few weeks ago and maybe he took it the wrong way, but thought he could ask for anything. And he did, so why did I think he might be a little more mature after going thru all that crap he went through? I have no idea. He hasn't changed at all it seems. But not a big surprise I guess. At least it should not have been.

I work right along the Missouri River where it has been flooded all summer and they recently re-opened the highway again for the shorter path home. It looks so dusty and muddy, and still plenty of water around the highway. Its pretty scary actually...the water is still too close to the road. The shoulder of the highway is actually gone now and there is water there. That is how close the water is to the highway now. So if it starts raining bad again...who knows. It may be shut down again. But it did not seem any faster this morning. I still made it into town around the same time as the longer way!

Well, I think I just needed to dump my thoughts somewhere safe...or maybe not so safe, huh? But, I needed to do this or journal. And I do not have a journal with me. So here I am --- and here I go! Until next time.

Monday, June 14, 2010

???

Okay I know its not my problem but I can't help thinking about it anyway.... going thru the "what ifs" moment right now...

I have sporadically made it to a couple of meetings since the last post. And now I need more.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

I made it to a meeting!!!

I made it to a meeting a few weeks ago and forgot to post! I haven't made it back yet. It was good to see everyone.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

All turning out well...

Well, concerning my last post, it does seem to be turning out okay. I, on the other hand am still depriving myself of sleep. I am on vacation for a few days and seem to have stuffed my first day full of stuff I want to do. And I should be in bed, but fighting it again.

I just dropped my oldest off at college and I am glad she is going back. Still worried about the financial part of it. But it hasn't seemed to stop her from going.

One of my darlings got into some trouble and I don't want to post exactly what - even though if you are in AA or Al-Anon circles, it really applies here. She is working this matter out herself and I am glad to see that. I have helped her a little this week, glad to do so though. It doesn't get requested often. But it is in her hands and she is taking care of it.

I am getting quite a bit of exercise and my blood sugar numbers are looking really good. I did get my A1C down from 7.2 to 6.3! So very happy about that. My goal was 6.5, but I never thought it would drop down so fast!!! I am very tired though, maybe its the SLEEP I'm still missing!!! Ya Think???

I need to get to a meeting. I think I will go sometime this week!

Good night!